Friday, May 21, 2021

A Teacher's Goodbye

We gathered together in a big cluster on the back side of the teacher's parking lot.  In less than 3 minutes the school buses would come around the circle and pass our group.

This is tradition.

On the last day of school we wave goodbye.

We stood there in our blue and gold shirts and blue jeans.  If exhaustion were a garment, we were wearing that too.  

There were veteran teachers that had felt this "last day" feeling many times.  There were the first year teachers that wore the shock of a year suddenly done.  Then the rest of us mixed in.  

We are a hoot.  Such a fun mixed bag of personalities.

Most of our faces held big grins.  Laughter came easy in our crowd and hugs were the norm.

As the buses started pulling around and honking we did what teachers do.  

We began waving like idiots.

We yelled our goodbyes and even blew some kisses into the air.

One after the next the buses rolled by.

Students pressed into the bus seats nearest to us to wave and yell back.

Tears jumped to my eyes.  

I looked around and I was not alone.

Other teachers were crying too.

It's a funny thing~ this profession.

We do it because we love it.

We get our students in August and immediately we get to work learning them so we can teach them.

Teachers are typically pretty great learners.

By the time those students wave goodbye to us in May we know so many things about them:  their learning style, their friends, their hobbies, their seating preference, the music they listen to, their crushes, their challenges, their strengths, inside jokes, nicknames, favorite snacks and personal style.

We know their moods and their jokes and their sarcasm.

We know which students will fall asleep and which ones will catch on quickly to our content.

We know which students will ask to go to the bathroom in every single class and which ones we can trust to heat up our coffee:)

We know who will try to sneak a grab at our phones so they can put selfies on our camera rolls and which students prefer no limelight at all.

We spend 180 days learning these kids so we can adequately teach them.

And then we wave goodbye.

Don't get me wrong....we are so exhausted.  The kids are too.

But saying goodbye just stinks.

All that effort.  Done.

The chapter is closed.

A teacher's goodbye is given with the grace for those students to go forward and the hope that some thing we gave them will last. 

GOODBYE Class of 2025!!

This teacher is better because of you!!

"Blessed are those who find wisdom, those who gain understanding, for she is more profitable than silver and yields better returns than gold.

She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her.

Long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are riches and honor..

Her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace.

She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her; those who hold her fast will be blessed."

Proverbs 3:13-18



Wednesday, April 28, 2021

the Life I never Imagined

 There is a verse I have heard for most of my life.   

Growing up in church it is not difficult to become familiar with verses almost by osmosis.  See them over and over...hear them over and over...inundated with them.  It's not a bad thing.  Quite the opposite.  Those sacred words come ringing back at the most interesting moments.

"But, as it is written, What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him." 1 Corinthians 2:9

I have not spent a lot of time breaking down this scripture or studying the word meanings.  

Yet, on its face, the words seem to be offering a mysterious type of adventure for those that love God.

Mysterious adventure sounds fun, or at the very least, entertaining.  

I love a good mystery.  Intrigue and suspense are right up my alley.

I also love a fun adventure.  Twists and turns and spontaneous highs and lows make memories that last.

As much as I love those things I prefer my life to be lived in a measured manner.

A couple of weeks ago I stood on the beach and got down right amused at the life I am living these days.

The only predictable thing about it is that it is constantly unpredictable.

The Lord is helping me roll with the punches.

He alone knows I am allowing a peace to engulf me in the midst of some personal circumstances that would have had me bound in anxiety and fear not too long ago.

Glory to God.

I watch someone completely precious to me slip away in the clutches of dementia.

I watch another someone live out devotion in such a beautiful and selfless way that I am inspired to tears.

I see a home that once held a singular purpose expand to hold a love it may have never known otherwise.

My heart is full and heavy.

Life does that.  

I go back and forth between moments of unexpected delight and heartaches that scream to my soul that this life is not all there is.  

My imagination lacks the dreams that only God can dream.

I could have never imagined this.